I know a lot about disappointment. I also know a lot about reframing, bright sides, and the universal tendency toward good things. This post is about that. Sort of. There was a not insignificant amount of build up to the Simcoe Country Violence Against Women Coordinating Committee talk. I was approached at the Muskoka Domestic … Continue reading Blog: Thanks, Universe, For Fucking Shit Up
I was so nervous! I had a little notepad with questions on it and I read them faithfully, one by one. I was very quiet and awkward. Even though I interact with women all the time at my work, in my life, and volunteering, in basically the same type of setting (I love to ask questions and I’m very curious, so if I’m not careful I can accidentally interview people without even thinking about it!), I was overwhelmed by the camera and the knowledge that it was Very Important to be professional and sound good, etc.
I woke up early to the pink streaks of sunrise over the snow-covered lake. I took a moment to rest in gratitude for this experience and then I got up. I ran through the portion of my talk that includes improvisation, and got ready for the day.
Excerpt: In previous years, the Film Festival had been located in one large theatre, but this year it had been divided and we took up two theatres that were near each other. Since this was my first year, I couldn’t compare, but personally I didn’t mind it too much as I was overwhelmed enough without having that many people in one place. But I heard others were disappointed at the arrangement, which I understand.
Excerpt: Although it is hard to feel like I am working really hard to only lose a pound a week, it has allowed my body a comfortable and safe place to rest without my punishing interventions.
Can a woman with an eating disorder, which isn’t entirely in recovery, ever attempt weight loss without triggering herself? I believe so. I believe some addicts in recovery can also have one glass of wine without relapsing. I believe women contain multitudes. But can I?
I struggled all day with writing about sobriety. Today marks one year of sobriety for me, which means abstaining from alcohol as my drug of choice. I decided to just do some kind of list about the pros and cons of this journey, where I am now, and how I foresee sobriety should I continue … Continue reading Personal: One Year Sober